September Favourites

I probably say this every time but I can't believe how fast September has gone. For me September was very busy and as I mentioned last time, I am tired. Like really tired. To be honest, it was a difficult month for me but today lets take a look at some of the good things. October is going to be another busy month but hopefully it will be more exciting because I have a few things planned that I'm looking forward to. But for now, here are some of my September favourites:

Beau Bloggers

I would like to start off this post by saying sorry for being away for a few weeks. Between school, homework, my family visiting, and my Saturday job it's been a little crazy in my little world. When I'm not tired, I'm asleep so blogging hasn't been on my mind too much. And now I have a cold which sucks but at least I have time to write a post, finally. 
 Today I've decided to talk about Beau Bloggers which is a blogging community I'm part of that turned one with past month. 

Motivation Wednesday is A Terrible Name

In my last post I outlined the struggles I've faced in the past few years and it helped me realise I need help. Not from therapists or doctors I've had enough of those. I need to help myself. That is why I've made the decision to be healthy mentally and physically. I know it's two in the morning so my brain is a little muddled but I think day time Erin will agree with me. I don't believe that you can just decide to be happy one day but you can decide to be healthy. Or at least try to be and that's what I plan to do. 

September Sunsets and My School Experience

Yesterday was just so great. I saw three friends of mine. Two of which I had lost touch with and not seen for a year. I'd like to talk about my thoughts on the day. How it made me super happy but also confused and kind of sad. But to do that, I'll need to explain a little more so first lets talk about my experience with school.

August Favourites

Tomorrow August will be over. Meaning an entire month will have passed by in what felt like a week. VEDA will be over with just one more video. And more importantly, Summer will be over. I go back to school in three days and I am not even slightly prepared which is why today I decided to share my August favourites. I will post about going back to school on Wednesday when the reality of the situation becomes clearer to me. But until then, here are some things I liked this August:

Favourite Books:

Eleanor and Park by Rainbow Rowell. It had been a while since I found a book that I genuinely felt I couldn't put down but this was one. I love the characters, the story, the style of writing. Everything I guess. I finished this on the boat home from the Isle of Man and got completely lost in it that I forgot about the possibility of sinking.

Truckers by Terry Pratchett. I haven't actually finished this book yet so if it turns out to be the worst ending ever, I'll unrecommend it next month. At first I struggled to get into this story because it's a little confusing for me when there are so many names and things to remember but now I'm really enjoying it. The idea is great and it's such a nice world to imagine while reading.

Favourite TV Shows:

Torchwood. In August my mum and I watched all of this show because we were obsessed. We love John Barrowman so we had to watch Torchwood and now we love him more. To be honest, I wasn't a fan of the last season but maybe that's just me. (I wasn't sure how to casually mention Janto so here it is casually being said. You're welcome.)

Game of Thrones. This month I finished season two and as much as it is taking me a long time to watch, I do love it. Despite not having a clue what's going on, I find myself trapped in the show every time I hear the opening titles. 

Community. My brother and I watched the whole first season of this in one day and since then it has been a competition to see who can watch the rest first. I am losing at season 4 episode 3. Community is one of those shows I didn't expect much of but then absolutely loved. The only thing is; are supposed to like Jeff? Because my brother hates him and I only just started to find him not awful. 


Favourite YouTube Channel:

NotJustBlonde. This is Zannah and I found her channel because she was doing VEDA this month. I've really enjoyed watching VEDA on her second channel and going back to watch everything I've missed. 

Favourite Songs:
Knuckles- NotJustBlonde (Zannah) This song is amazing and makes me jealous of her musical abilities as I have none. 
One for the Road- DoddleOddle (Dodie) Another musical person who writes amazing songs and makes me jealous
Flame- Sundara Karma

Favourite Films-

Paper Towns. This film was great and I wrote a full review here if you'd like to see that.

Fantastic Four. I heard a few people say they didn't like this film... but I did. Why I, personally, think this is is because there isn't as much action as you'd expect from a superhero movie. It's basically just a whole film of back story which I love but maybe that's not for everyone.

The Sisterhood of Night. Honestly, I don't know what this film was about or what actually happened but I know that it was pretty great and I know that when it was over I wanted to see it again. 

Horns. I had no idea what this film was really about before watching it and so I had quite a nice surprise. (Well not exactly nice) I'd definitely recommend it and you an see how far into it you get before making a Harry Potter joke. 

My Fake Fiance. We watched this film as a joke but I felt I should mention it because it made me laugh so much. My sister and I love films like this and she moved out this month so we had a day where we watched this, After the Ball (another great film), and the newest episodes of Bachelor in Paradise. 


I had quite a lot of favourites this month. Comment below some of yours. It is currently 12:16 so I have missed the Sunday post by a little bit but I'm sure we can forget about that one today. That's all for now, hope to see you next time. Bye

Isle of Man 2015

On Sunday the 9th of August my mum and I drove down to Heysham to get the ferry to the Isle of Man. Driving there was quite stressful because we were scarily close to missing the boat and my brother and dad were supposed to be coming with us but couldn't in the end. But we did get there, the boat didn't sink, and the dog wasn't seasick so all was good . Today I thought I would show you some of the pictures I took while we were there. 

It was a very grey day but this is the Isle of Man as we were getting closer on the boat there.

Erin Writes #4 The Fosters

Just when you thought I would stop talking about The Fosters, I come back with a whole post about it. But this isn't going to be me talking about how great the show is or the fact that I ship Jonnor like there's no tomorrow. This is, finally, another Erin Writes post. I made this series when I first started blogging and since then have only written three posts on it. There have been various different reasons as to why I only did three but more recently it was due to my complete lack of inspiration. I went for around two months without writing a single word for any of my books. It didn't bother me too much though until I started watching The Fosters when I realised how long it had been since I had written. 

Market Bosworth: Getting Lost in a Good Way

This time last week I was driving down to Market Bosworth to stay for two nights at the Bosworth Hall hotel. It was a pretty amazing place and I had a great time. I'd never heard of Market Bosworth before so my mum and I spent most of the time looking around the town and getting lost. Today I thought I'd share the pictures I took while there. They're not great but that doesn't matter I guess.

This is one of the doors into the hotel. It's a very big place and the rooms at the front, here, are mostly  big halls for weddings, and the kitchens. 

Comic Con and Clothes Haul

In the past month I have collected most of what I bought from various places and decided to show you in a big haul. Honestly, I don't think this is everything but I can't remember what's new because it all feels like so long ago. A lot of the clothes we're bought by my mum or grandma and the everything else was bought by me because I have a job now which is great. If I can remember I will put the price of everything but I wouldn't count on that. Anyway, here is what I got:

Summer To Do List part 3

Lets pretend that the reason I missed my weekday post was because I've been super busy doing important things. And lets pretend I haven't been spending every day watching The Fosters and every night crying over Jonnor. No of course that didn't happen. Today I got away from those really important things I was doing and thought I'd share with you the final part of my Summer To Do List. You can see part 2 here.

My terrible picture of the pink sky

June Favourites

I know, I know. It's late but I was excited about all the other posts I had planned and just never got round to doing a favourites. There are quite a few favourites this month, especially TV and films so lets get started.

Favourite Films:

Super 8. This easily became one of my favourites films. There isn't anything I didn't love about it and would definitely recommend it. For me, the friendship between the group of boys the film is based around made is so real and beautiful in a way I've not seen in a film before.

Men, Women and Children. I didn't know much about this film but I had heard quite a lot of good things about it and rightly so. I tend to get emotional invested in any film, book, or TV show but this was different. It felt as if I were switching from understanding one character to then understanding another. Each person seemed believable and no one was romanticized for the audience to like them more. This made the film better because it was like real people with real lives. 

Serenity. Obviously you have to watch Firefly first or it isn't as good. But oh boy is this film good. Anything I want to say will give stuff away so I won't say anything, just watch it.

 Favourite TV shows:

Firefly. Watch this before Serenity.

Pretty Little Liars. It started again and it's not long left till we find out who A is (I think). I've been enjoying the new series so far. Only problem is that we need more Ezra please. 

Orange Is The New Black. I waited very patiently for the new series of this show and it certainly did not take me long to watch it. Something that happened about half way through the series really upset me which ruined the rest a little but it was still very good. 

Songs:

Hopeful By Owen will never shut up

This Is Gospel cover by Bethan Leadley

Fallout Shelter

I don't know why I got obsessed with this game in June but I did and still slightly am.

Hope you enjoyed my late June favourites. Comment below if you've liked some of the same things in June or July or any month. That's all for now, hope to see you next time. Bye

Summer To Do List part 2

It seems like I'm only ever going to write these posts when I'm sat outside in the sun. That isn't something I do often and I've been making it look that way. I think it's just because I begin to get excited about summer (despite it being ridiculously hot right now. I feel like I may burn to death). If you'd like to see my first Summer To Do List you can click here. I think this will be in three parts so hopefully the next will also be soon. But until then I hope you enjoy my summer to do list part 2. 

Eddie just casually acting like I wasn't about to sit there

Summer To Do List part 1

I am not much of a summer person. Currently I am sat in the garden feeling super uncomfortable and having spiders invade my personal space, in the hope that my skin tone can possibly change from ghost to fresh corpse. (That was a joke but seriously I am unhealthily pale. Go and sit in the sun if you can, it helps with staying alive and stuff.) Anyway, I have never really enjoyed summer but this year I seem quite excited about it so today I thought I would share with you some of the things I would like to do this Summer:

May Favourites

If I'm honest, I feel like May was over in the space of a week. Which is why this months favourites are going to be a little different. I don't feel like enough happened during May for me have the usually type of favourites post but I guess that doesn't really matter. So here are my May favourites for 2015:

An Awkward Question: YouTube

I know I've neglected some of my other blogging series recently but today I decided to start a new one. An Awkward Question is going to take a question or dilemma which I find awkward and ask for advice or opinions from you. These questions will be things which usually aren't considered awkward or much of a problem but I do as I worry about everything so much. So my first Awkward Question is: How do I YouTube?

It's May...When Did That Happen?

Recently my blog has felt like a constant circle of apologising and complaining. This is something I never wanted to happen. I always wanted to be completely honest on here about whats going on in my life which isn't always what people want to hear. Today I've decided to explain things and tell you some of my new ideas for The Art of Being Invisible in the future. I'm actually in a pretty good mood, which is new for me, so I'm looking forward to getting back into writing.

London 2015

I have been awful at posting recently for many different reasons. But I'm not going to go into that now because I would much rather talk about London.

March Favourites

Honestly March wasn't a good month for me. I didn't post on here much for many different reasons. As you may know from my previous post, my mental health hasn't been so great recently so I just didn't feel like I could write anything. And there were times when I was genuinely busy (I like went outside and stuff). A few days I'd planned on posting but got suddenly very scared that someone I know will find my blog and I couldn't do it. But I got here in the end and this is my, kind of late, March Favourites.

So...

  It's been a tough past month... scratch that, lets say year. (Maybe lifetime... that's not important). In my head there are two types of depressed people. Those who suffer trauma in life. They can have therapy and one day be cured. Others who are born with depression waiting to hit. Me,well, I'm the latter. The one with no real reason to be sad. The one with the 'perfect' life.

I've spent a long time wishing to be someone else. Anyone really. The popular, selfie taking, too much make up wearing kind of girl. Or the outcast who's not afraid to be different. The goth with black hair, thick eyeliner and an unhealthy obsession with My Chemical Romance (pause for sad fans to wipe their tears). Literally anyone but myself. I wish people would stop telling me to love myself. I wish the endless quotes of “you're perfect” and “embrace being different” would stop. Why can't you see that I can't? I could never love me. You don't have that emotion, you teach it. Now, I've been doing a fairly good job of teaching myself maths and history but I can't do this. But why? Why am I the screw up? The train wreck of the family or friendship group. I've lost everything (despite seeming so...whole on the outside) and I've fallen so many times. It hurts to be alive. It hurts to see this body, think these thoughts, hear this voice that I've hated, always. They don't change like the world around me does. So why am I expected to learn to love all of that? Why do I have to tolerate all of these things and embrace them as if it's something I'm proud of? I case you haven't noticed, I'm not.

I don't love myself, I tolerate myself. I go through the day scared of what will be in the seconds that follow. Taking each breathe as if it's my last. And wishing it to be. I don't want to die. No, the idea of death confuses and scares me for many reasons (I think I've watched to much Supernatural and now I just think no one's ever really dead. You can imagine the shock I got when Cory Monteith never came back to Glee). But living is unbearable. Honestly I have a fear. A fear of being in any kind of pain. It keeps me from dying but it keeps me from living too. So no, I won't kill myself. But I will spend every day wishing I could.

Recently I've been reading the book How To Build a Girl by Caitlin Moran and it's inspired me. I thought maybe it would change everything... and you never know, it might. But I think it's time I killed this Erin and built myself a new girl. Only trouble is, I just don't know how. How do you make you're self confident (and please let me stop you before you tell me “fake it till you make it” because I do not need to hear that broken record) and how do you brake away from this person that has been you for so long? If you were looking for the answer to this question, sorry, maybe try a Google search.

So I'm sorry I've been gone. And I'm sorry that when I have been here, it's a little disconnected. But I've been stuck... feeling hopeless and lonely until it became too much to handle. I've been crying and hurting over this sense of self hatred and regret so much that I couldn't just be okay for two seconds. And I couldn't kill myself so it felt like no one cared. Like I would only truly be heard if I did. I guess that's why so many people are accused of attention seeking, because for me it partly would be. As bad as that sounds, it's true. How do I build a new girl? How do I live in a world that won't let me? And how do I go on when this is my forever?

Erin Writes #3 Writers Block

I can go months without having a single word to write in my books. It can be very annoying, especially if I've set myself a deadline. And I find that if I force myself to write, it is never as good. So today I thought I would share with you some tips to help with writers block.