Monday 28 November 2016

Five Photos - The Past Year

I wanted to start a new series on here called Five Photos where I, shockingly, will share 5 photos I've taken. The point of it is to encourage me to take more pictures because I don't enough and I'd like to. I'm going to try and do this as a monthly summary but for the first installment, this is the past year. 


This is from December 2015 the first time I went out after Christmas. There's a forest area near where I live and next to that a bridge over the motorway. Before crossing the bridge we saw that someone had decorated one of the trees. All the trees surrounding it had died and I just thought it looked really pretty and sparkly. 


It took a long time to decide which picture of Eddie to use, there are a lot. I chose this one from when we were in the car on the way to the beach. I love him. That is all. 


This year I did my GCSES. For my final art exam I took pictures of places in Manchester. I don't know why I like this picture so much but it's one of my favourites from the project. 


My mum and I went to Newcastle this year. Something I didn't know about Newcastle is that it has a lot of bridges. Something you probably don't know about me is that I love bridges. It was wonderful. Note that I don't remember taking this picture but I like it. 

It snowed in March which was great. Snow makes me incredibly happy so here is some snow on a tree in my garden. 

Honarable mention to this pig who we met at Beamish. The loveliest pig you will ever meet who just really wanted to be in a picture.

That was the first in the Five Photos series (technically six). I hope you enjoyed it and I'm looking forward to doing this again for December photos. 

Saturday 19 November 2016

The Sunshine Blog Award

I was nominated for The Sunshine Blog Award by the wonderful Lou's World. You can find her post here. First I would like to say thank you and everyone should definitely go check out her blog because it's one of my favourites. 


The Rules:

1. Thank the person who nominated you and link back to their blog in your post
2. Answer the 11 questions that your nominator has asked you
3. Nominate 11 blogs to receive the award
4. Come up with 11 questions to ask the bloggers you have nominated
5. List the rules and include the sunshine blogger award logo in your post

Lou's World Questions:

1. Where do you want to be this time next year?
  In my second year at college and hopefully making more videos. By then I think I'd like to have had a haircut and I definitely want to have read more books. If the past few weeks have taught me anything, it's that I want learn more and do more for the things I believe in. In a years time, I hope I'll have done that. 

2. Who is the most important person in your life right now?
  My parents. I get two people because I can't just choose one. 

3. Who is your favourite blogger/vlogger right now?
  Hazel Hayes.  

4. If you could create a superhero, what would you name them and what would their powers be? 
  Bobbie who can talk to rabbits. (I just want to know what my rabbit is thinking and I think Bobbie is a cute name which kind of relates to rabbits)

5. What video always makes you smile? Link it to make someone else smile!
  Who's Billy Goat is This?- https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6PQrdBsrZVE 
  or Texting Random People with Daniel J Layton

6. What was the last movie you watched? What did you think of it?
  Gremlins which was great, obviously. 

7. What cancelled TV show would you bring back for one more season?
  Firefly. The first season and the film are perfect already but I do miss that show. (But if Girl Meets World gets cancelled then I definitely want another season of that.)

8. If you could be in a movie or TV show (as yourself), which would you most fit into?
  This is such a difficult question because I would be terrible in pretty much all the shows I like. I guess I'd probably say the film X+Y just because of the autism and the maths. 

9. What's your favourite song of all time? 
  Another incredibly difficult question. My favourite song changes all the time but if I had to pick one I think I'd say On My Own from Les Mis. 

10. If you had everything you've ever wanted, what would you be doing right now?
  At this moment, reading probably. In general, acting. In film or TV or theatre or all of the above. When I was younger, I knew that was what I wanted to do and life stuff got in the way. It's like my ideal what I want to do in life but I know it won't happen. 

11. If you had married your first celebrity crush, who would you be married to right now?
  Freddie Benson from iCarly. And now I'm very disappointed that isn't true. 

Nominations and Questions:

I'll be honest. I don't know that many bloggers and most of the people I would nominate were already nominated. So I know this isn't the rules but I'd like to double nominate all the people who already were by Lou's World and encourage you to go check them out because they're great. As were these questions which hopefully they will all answer. It sucks that I'm giving up at this point but I'm nothing if not a disappointment. So what I am going to do is share a few of the Sunshine Blog Award posts I've enjoyed and I hope you like them too.

Laurelella
HALE
A Tolkienist's Perspective

Again I'd like to say thank you for the nomination. Everyone needs to have a read of Lou's World I genuinely love her blog and writing this post gave me the push and the motivation to get back here. So thank you.

Thursday 20 October 2016

The Question of Sport

Sport has always been something I've felt not great about but it is something I've thought about a lot recently. After seeing Hannah Witton's video My Relationship with Sport and Exercise, I got to thinking about my relationship with sport. I'll give you a little teaser, it's non-existent. 

By default, I've always been a Manchester City fan. But because it is only my brother who's big on football, I was never actively involved in supporting them. In my life I've been to three football matches. 1. A City match I remember nothing about. 2. The London 2012 Olympics which I remember nothing about (not entirely sure it actually happened) 3.  Manchester City Women cup final win about two weeks ago.



Hearing Hannah talk about the women's team inspired me to go and see them myself. I do think it's a great thing to support because the amount of people who'll attend a women's football match doesn't even compare the number at a men's match. (Funny considering the women won that day and the men lost) I had a really great time. It makes me very nervous to watch football but it's also incredibly exciting. I don't feel the same about it when I see a match on TV than when I go in person. Usually on TV, I'm just not that invested. I'd like to be but I'm not.

When thinking about sport, what always pops up is humiliation education or as it's more commonly known Physical Education (P.E.). I hated this in school. Not because I hated sport but because I wasn't good at it. If you weren't good at sport, you were disliked in PE. There wasn't encouragement to improve so I stopped trying. Any enthusiasm I had for sports was gone after a PE lesson. And now I'm just trying to get that enthusiasm back. I will never be good at any sport. But I do think I could enjoy it again. 

This has been a little random. I didn't really have a point to make other than watch Hannah Witton and PE was awful. These were some of my thoughts on sport, feel free to share yours with me. Thank you for reading

Saturday 1 October 2016

01/10/2016

Do we talk about it? Do I have to make an excuse and apologise again? I probably should or I should at least acknowledge the situation. That works too. I am unreliable. Most of things I say I'll do, I don't. You can take this years VEDA as an example. I started by describing it as my attempt at VEDA. I use the word attempt because I know me and I knew how unlikely it was that I could make it past day three. So it makes sense that I haven't posted on here for nearly two months.

I can't say I have a point to make right now so this is just me rambling. But I guess there are a few things I'd like to say. 

Warning: I'm going to talk about being depressed again. Skip to the end if you've heard this one before. I really like writing and making videos (for the short time I did). When I stopped doing that, it was because I wasn't happy in life. I wasn't really anything. And I'm still not. I stopped writing because I didn't have the motivation anymore. Things seem kind of pointless when you're in a depression week/month/ two months/ a year/ generally in life. I can't say that I don't still feel that way but I think I realise now that I like writing and I like making videos. Why would I not be doing those things if I like them? It doesn't actually make sense. 

This must be depressing to read so here's a picture of my dog sleeping
 to lighten the mood.

I'm still scared of all of this. To be honest, I think the number one most discussed topic on here is the fact I'm terrified of being here. Every single time I think about posting I let that stop me. And it will stop me. Maybe today. Maybe next week. Maybe in a year from now. As I mentioned, I'm unreliable. (And I am not good at convincing people to come back here.) 

What's changed today is that I read a comment from someone on my last post (also realised there are two others I haven't responded to and I feel bad about that) which I wasn't expecting. I guess I forget that even when I'm not here, all the things I've said still are. Comments always make me feel better and if we're being honest, I needed that right now. 

Three weeks ago I started college. I like it a lot. But I hate it just as much. There is something about my brain that convinces me I am incapable of lots of things. I don't think I can have friends. It sounds crazy but I don't know how to be someones friend or exist in a group of people. It hurts because that's all I want. And it sounds desperate. And it is. 

This is not what I was expecting to write. I was going to talk about how I love my label maker and Halloween but here we are. I think I should leave it there. Mostly because I should be writing my assignment right now but lets not mention that one again.
This feels like a new chapter. One that is equally unreliable as the last and incredibly mediocre to read but a new one all the same. Thank you if you read this mess of a blog post. I have no idea what I'm doing but we're rolling with it. 

Sunday 7 August 2016

A Few of My Favourite Things

For VEDA today I decided to make a video of a few of the things I've loved recently. It would mean a lot to me if you could check it out. But for now I thought I'd talk about a couple of the things mentioned in the video.

Monday 1 August 2016

VEDA 2016

I've finally done it. I uploaded my first video to YouTube and it's day one of VEDA 2016. I'd love if you could check it out. 
If we're being honest, I don't expect to upload a video every day. It's going to be more like a video some days in August.  But I'm still very excited and I hope you like it. 

Friday 15 July 2016

15/07/2016

I have been gone for a long time now for various reasons. There's not much I can say about the time I've been gone. Nothing too monumental to mention. 
Getting back into blogging is something I'm excited to do. I've missed this but it's something I'm also scared to do. Sitting down with my blog waiting and my head trying to think of something coherent, I've realised that I don't remember how to do this. And I feel like maybe we need a reintroduction. Having said that:

I'm Erin and I'm 16. About two years ago I started this blog and have been writing it on and off ever since. The posts I write often vary between lifestyle, books and films. (And in our current situation Pokemon Go is likely to make an appearance.) 

So now I can't think of anything else to say other than I hope to be posting regularly again and I'm glad to be back. That's all for now. Hope to see you next time, bye 

Saturday 5 March 2016

Now

Now. How do we do this? Through my 3am tears I'll try to explain. 

Depression appears in waves. And when the waves arrives it floods. I have no reason to feel the way I do. No logic. On the outside it seems as if I'm doing better than I have in a long time. But I always hide. I don't like to show how I feel because I don't want people to worry. I guess that's why I'm writing this. As a way of actually sharing. 

I'm not okay right now. It'll pass but right now I'm not okay. That's why sometimes I leave for a while and I don't post because I can't face it. I worry that I will go away again and not post for months. But so far, I've always come back.

The point of writing this was to tell you that right now I can't find the words to say. There's nothing I want to write about but I don't want to stop posting all together. School is slowly killing me but it'll be over in around ten weeks. Maybe then I'll feel more like I can talk because my mind won't be full of the things that happened that day. So if I'm gone for a few weeks, now you know why and maybe I won't feel so bad about it.

Sunday 21 February 2016

6 Films 5 Days

I have had the past week off from school which has been wonderful. In this time my mum also decided to take the week off work and we decided we'd go to the cinema every day (week day). On Tuesday we went twice so here are six short film reviews from five great days.

Monday 15 February 2016

February 14th 2016

Over the years I've heard the whole book of single Valentines jokes. And every year I've laughed and thought oh it's that so #relatable which is fine. In reality being single on Valentines Day is not something which bothers me. So if you were here to read the beautiful story of how I found someone to spend my day with you'd be incorrect. But it was my dad's birthday so I still had a good day.  

Saturday 6 February 2016

Hazel Hayes

You might of heard of Hazel Hayes. At least I hope you have. If not, you're welcome. Hazel Hayes is a YouTuber, Film maker, Actress, and other titles probably. And now seemed like a good time to talk about her because I've been thinking about December in her Time of The Month series which was, as they all were, amazing. 

Saturday 16 January 2016

Films that Inspire Me to Make Films

For a very long time I've wanted to make films. At the age of 8, to a crowd of my own reflection, I gave a wonderful Oscars speech. My friend and I would always make videos on our crappy cameras thinking for some reason that they were Hollywood hits. Some of the best titles included Super Frog, Hopscotch Monster, and Invasion of the Dinos (which sadly never made it to production). I don't know what made us think of those things but I do know what inspires me to write now. So here are eight films that inspire me to make films:


Friday 8 January 2016

I am delighted to say that you have received this email

I'm only just getting back into blogging so I thought I post again just talking about what's going on and how I'm feeling. Regular posts will be back soon, maybe. 

A few days ago I went back to school. And I must say if there's anything to drain the life from me, it's the education system. But luckily, that same day I received an email to say I'd been given a conditional offer at college. (I have to get certain GCSE grades to go there but if I get them, I'll have a place.) To be honest, I don't know how it works. I sent in an online application and apparently that's enough. So I'm pretty happy.

Nothing like a Conditional offer to cram the motivation down your throat. I'm not sure if I will go there. I have an interview at another college next week so... options I guess. But I now feel like I want to work hard to do well. I've been stuck recently because of my situation at school but now I don't want it to stand in the way. 

That's all for now, hope to see you next time. Bye