The Sunshine Blog Award

I was nominated for The Sunshine Blog Award by the wonderful Lou's World. You can find her post here. First I would like to say thank you and everyone should definitely go check out her blog because it's one of my favourites. 

The Rules:

1. Thank the person who nominated you and link back to their blog in your post
2. Answer the 11 questions that your nominator has asked you
3. Nominate 11 blogs to receive the award
4. Come up with 11 questions to ask the bloggers you have nominated
5. List the rules and include the sunshine blogger award logo in your post

Lou's World Questions:

1. Where do you want to be this time next year?
  In my second year at college and hopefully making more videos. By then I think I'd like to have had a haircut and I definitely want to have read more books. If the past few weeks have taught me anything, it's that I want learn more and do more for the things I believe in. In a years time, I hope I'll have done that. 

2. Who is the most important person in your life right now?
  My parents. I get two people because I can't just choose one. 

3. Who is your favourite blogger/vlogger right now?
  Hazel Hayes.  

4. If you could create a superhero, what would you name them and what would their powers be? 
  Bobbie who can talk to rabbits. (I just want to know what my rabbit is thinking and I think Bobbie is a cute name which kind of relates to rabbits)

5. What video always makes you smile? Link it to make someone else smile!
  Who's Billy Goat is This?- https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6PQrdBsrZVE 
  or Texting Random People with Daniel J Layton

6. What was the last movie you watched? What did you think of it?
  Gremlins which was great, obviously. 

7. What cancelled TV show would you bring back for one more season?
  Firefly. The first season and the film are perfect already but I do miss that show. (But if Girl Meets World gets cancelled then I definitely want another season of that.)

8. If you could be in a movie or TV show (as yourself), which would you most fit into?
  This is such a difficult question because I would be terrible in pretty much all the shows I like. I guess I'd probably say the film X+Y just because of the autism and the maths. 

9. What's your favourite song of all time? 
  Another incredibly difficult question. My favourite song changes all the time but if I had to pick one I think I'd say On My Own from Les Mis. 

10. If you had everything you've ever wanted, what would you be doing right now?
  At this moment, reading probably. In general, acting. In film or TV or theatre or all of the above. When I was younger, I knew that was what I wanted to do and life stuff got in the way. It's like my ideal what I want to do in life but I know it won't happen. 

11. If you had married your first celebrity crush, who would you be married to right now?
  Freddie Benson from iCarly. And now I'm very disappointed that isn't true. 

Nominations and Questions:

I'll be honest. I don't know that many bloggers and most of the people I would nominate were already nominated. So I know this isn't the rules but I'd like to double nominate all the people who already were by Lou's World and encourage you to go check them out because they're great. As were these questions which hopefully they will all answer. It sucks that I'm giving up at this point but I'm nothing if not a disappointment. So what I am going to do is share a few of the Sunshine Blog Award posts I've enjoyed and I hope you like them too.

Laurelella
HALE
A Tolkienist's Perspective

Again I'd like to say thank you for the nomination. Everyone needs to have a read of Lou's World I genuinely love her blog and writing this post gave me the push and the motivation to get back here. So thank you.

01/10/2016

Do we talk about it? Do I have to make an excuse and apologise again? I probably should or I should at least acknowledge the situation. That works too. I am unreliable. Most of things I say I'll do, I don't. You can take this years VEDA as an example. I started by describing it as my attempt at VEDA. I use the word attempt because I know me and I knew how unlikely it was that I could make it past day three. So it makes sense that I haven't posted on here for nearly two months.

I can't say I have a point to make right now so this is just me rambling. But I guess there are a few things I'd like to say. 

Warning: I'm going to talk about being depressed again. Skip to the end if you've heard this one before. I really like writing and making videos (for the short time I did). When I stopped doing that, it was because I wasn't happy in life. I wasn't really anything. And I'm still not. I stopped writing because I didn't have the motivation anymore. Things seem kind of pointless when you're in a depression week/month/ two months/ a year/ generally in life. I can't say that I don't still feel that way but I think I realise now that I like writing and I like making videos. Why would I not be doing those things if I like them? It doesn't actually make sense. 

This must be depressing to read so here's a picture of my dog sleeping
 to lighten the mood.

I'm still scared of all of this. To be honest, I think the number one most discussed topic on here is the fact I'm terrified of being here. Every single time I think about posting I let that stop me. And it will stop me. Maybe today. Maybe next week. Maybe in a year from now. As I mentioned, I'm unreliable. (And I am not good at convincing people to come back here.) 

What's changed today is that I read a comment from someone on my last post (also realised there are two others I haven't responded to and I feel bad about that) which I wasn't expecting. I guess I forget that even when I'm not here, all the things I've said still are. Comments always make me feel better and if we're being honest, I needed that right now. 

Three weeks ago I started college. I like it a lot. But I hate it just as much. There is something about my brain that convinces me I am incapable of lots of things. I don't think I can have friends. It sounds crazy but I don't know how to be someones friend or exist in a group of people. It hurts because that's all I want. And it sounds desperate. And it is. 

This is not what I was expecting to write. I was going to talk about how I love my label maker and Halloween but here we are. I think I should leave it there. Mostly because I should be writing my assignment right now but lets not mention that one again.
This feels like a new chapter. One that is equally unreliable as the last and incredibly mediocre to read but a new one all the same. Thank you if you read this mess of a blog post. I have no idea what I'm doing but we're rolling with it. 

A Few of My Favourite Things

For VEDA today I decided to make a video of a few of the things I've loved recently. It would mean a lot to me if you could check it out. But for now I thought I'd talk about a couple of the things mentioned in the video.

Motivation Wednesday is A Terrible Name

In my last post I outlined the struggles I've faced in the past few years and it helped me realise I need help. Not from therapists or doctors I've had enough of those. I need to help myself. That is why I've made the decision to be healthy mentally and physically. I know it's two in the morning so my brain is a little muddled but I think day time Erin will agree with me. I don't believe that you can just decide to be happy one day but you can decide to be healthy. Or at least try to be and that's what I plan to do. 

September Sunsets and My School Experience

Yesterday was just so great. I saw three friends of mine. Two of which I had lost touch with and not seen for a year. I'd like to talk about my thoughts on the day. How it made me super happy but also confused and kind of sad. But to do that, I'll need to explain a little more so first lets talk about my experience with school.

August Favourites

Tomorrow August will be over. Meaning an entire month will have passed by in what felt like a week. VEDA will be over with just one more video. And more importantly, Summer will be over. I go back to school in three days and I am not even slightly prepared which is why today I decided to share my August favourites. I will post about going back to school on Wednesday when the reality of the situation becomes clearer to me. But until then, here are some things I liked this August:

Favourite Books:

Eleanor and Park by Rainbow Rowell. It had been a while since I found a book that I genuinely felt I couldn't put down but this was one. I love the characters, the story, the style of writing. Everything I guess. I finished this on the boat home from the Isle of Man and got completely lost in it that I forgot about the possibility of sinking.

Truckers by Terry Pratchett. I haven't actually finished this book yet so if it turns out to be the worst ending ever, I'll unrecommend it next month. At first I struggled to get into this story because it's a little confusing for me when there are so many names and things to remember but now I'm really enjoying it. The idea is great and it's such a nice world to imagine while reading.

Favourite TV Shows:

Torchwood. In August my mum and I watched all of this show because we were obsessed. We love John Barrowman so we had to watch Torchwood and now we love him more. To be honest, I wasn't a fan of the last season but maybe that's just me. (I wasn't sure how to casually mention Janto so here it is casually being said. You're welcome.)

Game of Thrones. This month I finished season two and as much as it is taking me a long time to watch, I do love it. Despite not having a clue what's going on, I find myself trapped in the show every time I hear the opening titles. 

Community. My brother and I watched the whole first season of this in one day and since then it has been a competition to see who can watch the rest first. I am losing at season 4 episode 3. Community is one of those shows I didn't expect much of but then absolutely loved. The only thing is; are supposed to like Jeff? Because my brother hates him and I only just started to find him not awful. 


Favourite YouTube Channel:

NotJustBlonde. This is Zannah and I found her channel because she was doing VEDA this month. I've really enjoyed watching VEDA on her second channel and going back to watch everything I've missed. 

Favourite Songs:
Knuckles- NotJustBlonde (Zannah) This song is amazing and makes me jealous of her musical abilities as I have none. 
One for the Road- DoddleOddle (Dodie) Another musical person who writes amazing songs and makes me jealous
Flame- Sundara Karma

Favourite Films-

Paper Towns. This film was great and I wrote a full review here if you'd like to see that.

Fantastic Four. I heard a few people say they didn't like this film... but I did. Why I, personally, think this is is because there isn't as much action as you'd expect from a superhero movie. It's basically just a whole film of back story which I love but maybe that's not for everyone.

The Sisterhood of Night. Honestly, I don't know what this film was about or what actually happened but I know that it was pretty great and I know that when it was over I wanted to see it again. 

Horns. I had no idea what this film was really about before watching it and so I had quite a nice surprise. (Well not exactly nice) I'd definitely recommend it and you an see how far into it you get before making a Harry Potter joke. 

My Fake Fiance. We watched this film as a joke but I felt I should mention it because it made me laugh so much. My sister and I love films like this and she moved out this month so we had a day where we watched this, After the Ball (another great film), and the newest episodes of Bachelor in Paradise. 


I had quite a lot of favourites this month. Comment below some of yours. It is currently 12:16 so I have missed the Sunday post by a little bit but I'm sure we can forget about that one today. That's all for now, hope to see you next time. Bye

Isle of Man 2015

On Sunday the 9th of August my mum and I drove down to Heysham to get the ferry to the Isle of Man. Driving there was quite stressful because we were scarily close to missing the boat and my brother and dad were supposed to be coming with us but couldn't in the end. But we did get there, the boat didn't sink, and the dog wasn't seasick so all was good . Today I thought I would show you some of the pictures I took while we were there. 

It was a very grey day but this is the Isle of Man as we were getting closer on the boat there.

Market Bosworth: Getting Lost in a Good Way

This time last week I was driving down to Market Bosworth to stay for two nights at the Bosworth Hall hotel. It was a pretty amazing place and I had a great time. I'd never heard of Market Bosworth before so my mum and I spent most of the time looking around the town and getting lost. Today I thought I'd share the pictures I took while there. They're not great but that doesn't matter I guess.

This is one of the doors into the hotel. It's a very big place and the rooms at the front, here, are mostly  big halls for weddings, and the kitchens. 

July Favourites

I'd first of all like to apologise for missing my Friday and Sunday post last week. I know that I've only just started the new schedule and I'm already not sticking to it but I was busy. And I also had one of those moments of fear when I was convinced people I know will read my blog which if you've been here before, you'll have heard me mention. But it's fine now and I decided to keep going with my July favourites.

What's Going Wrong with YouTube?

A few days ago Bry and Candice uploaded a video onto their channel LifeofBribry called What's going wrong with YouTube?. This video brought me back to a blog post I was going to write a long time ago but never did. So now I am. 

Comic Con and Clothes Haul

In the past month I have collected most of what I bought from various places and decided to show you in a big haul. Honestly, I don't think this is everything but I can't remember what's new because it all feels like so long ago. A lot of the clothes we're bought by my mum or grandma and the everything else was bought by me because I have a job now which is great. If I can remember I will put the price of everything but I wouldn't count on that. Anyway, here is what I got:

Summer To Do List part 3

Lets pretend that the reason I missed my weekday post was because I've been super busy doing important things. And lets pretend I haven't been spending every day watching The Fosters and every night crying over Jonnor. No of course that didn't happen. Today I got away from those really important things I was doing and thought I'd share with you the final part of my Summer To Do List. You can see part 2 here.

My terrible picture of the pink sky

June Favourites

I know, I know. It's late but I was excited about all the other posts I had planned and just never got round to doing a favourites. There are quite a few favourites this month, especially TV and films so lets get started.

Favourite Films:

Super 8. This easily became one of my favourites films. There isn't anything I didn't love about it and would definitely recommend it. For me, the friendship between the group of boys the film is based around made is so real and beautiful in a way I've not seen in a film before.

Men, Women and Children. I didn't know much about this film but I had heard quite a lot of good things about it and rightly so. I tend to get emotional invested in any film, book, or TV show but this was different. It felt as if I were switching from understanding one character to then understanding another. Each person seemed believable and no one was romanticized for the audience to like them more. This made the film better because it was like real people with real lives. 

Serenity. Obviously you have to watch Firefly first or it isn't as good. But oh boy is this film good. Anything I want to say will give stuff away so I won't say anything, just watch it.

 Favourite TV shows:

Firefly. Watch this before Serenity.

Pretty Little Liars. It started again and it's not long left till we find out who A is (I think). I've been enjoying the new series so far. Only problem is that we need more Ezra please. 

Orange Is The New Black. I waited very patiently for the new series of this show and it certainly did not take me long to watch it. Something that happened about half way through the series really upset me which ruined the rest a little but it was still very good. 

Songs:

Hopeful By Owen will never shut up

This Is Gospel cover by Bethan Leadley

Fallout Shelter

I don't know why I got obsessed with this game in June but I did and still slightly am.

Hope you enjoyed my late June favourites. Comment below if you've liked some of the same things in June or July or any month. That's all for now, hope to see you next time. Bye

8 Photos of Happiness

Last week I was tagged by the completely amazing Lou's World to do the eight photos of happiness tag. You can her post here which is great and you should definitely check it out. The tag was created by Ariel who also has wonderful blog.

 The rules of this tag are:

Thank your nominator and link them in the post
Link the creator Ariel
Post 8 photos of happiness (the photos can be anything that represents a moment, object, place or feeling that makes you happy)
Pop in a brief description of the photo, why you chose it or let the photos do the talking!
Spread the happiness and tag up to ten other bloggers!


This post is a little strange for me because I've never shown a picture of myself on this blog before so I'm a little nervous. Before I felt I could deny that this blog is mine if someone I know were to find it but now I can't so never mind. I think it'll be better that way. When looking through them, I noticed that my hair is straight all the time but in reality it is a big, curly mess which is misleading but great for me. I guess that's all I needed to say so lets look at the pictures.

Zoella

Two years ago I started watching Zoella on YouTube. This was when she just hit one million subscribers. It's difficult not to love Zoe's personality within the videos she makes. But as her channel grew, I unsubscribed. This was mostly because the content of her channel didn't interest me anymore. I just wasn't much of a fan and to be honest I wouldn't say I really am now. A few days ago I started to watch some of Zoe's vlogs and now I'm subscribed to her second channel. Today I thought I would write this post to explain to you why I find Zoella inspiring. 

Summer To Do List part 2

It seems like I'm only ever going to write these posts when I'm sat outside in the sun. That isn't something I do often and I've been making it look that way. I think it's just because I begin to get excited about summer (despite it being ridiculously hot right now. I feel like I may burn to death). If you'd like to see my first Summer To Do List you can click here. I think this will be in three parts so hopefully the next will also be soon. But until then I hope you enjoy my summer to do list part 2. 

Eddie just casually acting like I wasn't about to sit there

Starting To Wear Makeup - Beau Bloggers Collaboration

In the blogging community I am part of, called Beau Bloggers, we were given a challenge which was to pair up and both talk about something within a given theme. I was paired with the wonderful Izzy K (who's blog and YouTube channel I will link here) and we were given a problem and a solution. For this we decided to talk about when you should start to wear makeup as it is something Izzy would like to talk about and is relevant to my post An Awkward Question: Makeup from about a week ago. If you'd like to see a more detailed description of my thoughts on makeup, you can read that post. 

All I Know Now Book Review

About a week ago I wrote a post about Carrie Hope Fletcher (which you can see here) and so today I decided I should write a review of her book. I'm quite a slow reader and All I Know Now only took about 10 days to read which is good, for me. And I found the whole book to be inspiring and one that I could just read over and over again.

An Awkward Question: MakeUp

My last An Awkward Question post was about YouTube and I'd like to thank those of you who gave advice, it was very helpful. So today I thought I'd write another. If you don't know what An Awkward Question is, it is a blogging series I just started where I take a question or dilemma I have and ask you for your opinion. Most of things in this series will not normally be considered to be awkward but because I have a strange brain that struggles to understand most aspects of human life, I think that it is. My second awkward question of the series is: How do I start wearing makeup?

Summer To Do List part 1

I am not much of a summer person. Currently I am sat in the garden feeling super uncomfortable and having spiders invade my personal space, in the hope that my skin tone can possibly change from ghost to fresh corpse. (That was a joke but seriously I am unhealthily pale. Go and sit in the sun if you can, it helps with staying alive and stuff.) Anyway, I have never really enjoyed summer but this year I seem quite excited about it so today I thought I would share with you some of the things I would like to do this Summer: