Motivation Wednesday is A Terrible Name

In my last post I outlined the struggles I've faced in the past few years and it helped me realise I need help. Not from therapists or doctors I've had enough of those. I need to help myself. That is why I've made the decision to be healthy mentally and physically. I know it's two in the morning so my brain is a little muddled but I think day time Erin will agree with me. I don't believe that you can just decide to be happy one day but you can decide to be healthy. Or at least try to be and that's what I plan to do. 

It's no secret I'm not healthy. When it comes to sleep, exercise, and diet, I'm the worst. And the only reason for this is because it's easy. Staying up late, sitting at home, eating whatever I want. It's all so easy and when I felt as stressed and unhappy as I did the past few years I didn't want any more challenges. But recently it came to my attention how unhealthy I am. 

It's bad timing with Winter just around the corner and my busy six day week starting last Monday. But when I have motivation I have to use it.

If you've read my blog before, you may know that I work in a bike shop on Saturdays and that's a little strange considering I didn't even own a bike. Now I do and today I went out for my first bike ride in about five years. I plan to go out on my own after school because I live very nearby a few places that are nice and because after school is usually when I eat as many unhealthy snacks as is humanly possible. Today my dad and I went about seven miles which is great (for me that is. People often come into the shop telling me about how they're about to go on an 80 mile ride and their 60 miles the night before). 

Have you ever had that feeling where you just know you're gaining weight no matter what anyone says? I have that right now. To be fair, I'd be confused if I wasn't because last night I ate a whole bag of magic stars to myself and that isn't the first time that's happened in the past two weeks. My diet is awful. Think of the worst meal you can image and then imagine eating it three times a day. That's my diet right now. When my brother moves out next week, I know it'll be easier to eat better because he asks for all the chocolate and pizza and I have to join him in eating that. Yes, I do have to. 

Why I suddenly feel motivated?

Example of my Dream Board. A lot of this won't make sense without explaining it so feel free to ask in the comments if you're interesting in what any of this means.

If you're feeling unmotivated and low, I would recommend making a dream board. I know. I know it's dumb. We made them yesterday in school (Year 11 is when it all gets serious) and then I made two more when I got home. They seem childish but apparently they work because look at me now saying I'll exercise and everything. These pictures remind me of what I'm working towards, why everything I do matters, and how I can achieve the things in them.

So here we are. The Art of Being Invisible will in fact have a series about health (not just mental health) who'd have thought we'd get this far? Now I've said all this, I feel even more motivated because if I never post any of these more people will know I failed. You know what, the name Motivation Wednesday really doesn't work. Let's call it Dream Board.

That's all for now, hope to see you next time. Bye