Now

Now. How do we do this? Through my 3am tears I'll try to explain. 

Depression appears in waves. And when the waves arrives it floods. I have no reason to feel the way I do. No logic. On the outside it seems as if I'm doing better than I have in a long time. But I always hide. I don't like to show how I feel because I don't want people to worry. I guess that's why I'm writing this. As a way of actually sharing. 

I'm not okay right now. It'll pass but right now I'm not okay. That's why sometimes I leave for a while and I don't post because I can't face it. I worry that I will go away again and not post for months. But so far, I've always come back.

The point of writing this was to tell you that right now I can't find the words to say. There's nothing I want to write about but I don't want to stop posting all together. School is slowly killing me but it'll be over in around ten weeks. Maybe then I'll feel more like I can talk because my mind won't be full of the things that happened that day. So if I'm gone for a few weeks, now you know why and maybe I won't feel so bad about it.

6 Films 5 Days

I have had the past week off from school which has been wonderful. In this time my mum also decided to take the week off work and we decided we'd go to the cinema every day (week day). On Tuesday we went twice so here are six short film reviews from five great days.

February 14th 2016

Over the years I've heard the whole book of single Valentines jokes. And every year I've laughed and thought oh it's that so #relatable which is fine. In reality being single on Valentines Day is not something which bothers me. So if you were here to read the beautiful story of how I found someone to spend my day with you'd be incorrect. But it was my dad's birthday so I still had a good day.  

Hazel Hayes

You might of heard of Hazel Hayes. At least I hope you have. If not, you're welcome. Hazel Hayes is a YouTuber, Film maker, Actress, and other titles probably. And now seemed like a good time to talk about her because I've been thinking about December in her Time of The Month series which was, as they all were, amazing.